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I have all the reasons to celebrate. I have come out of the darkness.

Today my yogi tea quote said: without darkness we wouldn’t know light.

Usually I hate these obvious quotes.

Usually I don’t even bother reflecting on them.

But as I listen yet again to a conversation with @melanieannlayer I remembered my femininity. I remembered where i come from, what I have been through, Nothing huge, but emotionally for me it was.

I moved from being very depressed at the single idea of working my whole life as a physio.

I couldn’t see the light out of the tunnel.

I went back living with my mum who took care of me as if I hadn’t spent 5 years doing things for myself. I couldn’t even get in touch with my friends, I had no energy, no will to do anything, no desire to have fun.

Life seemed pointless. I didn’t understand. Nothing made sense. And I didn’t find anyone to talk to. Except my mum. Except my then boyfriend who is now my husband.

I knew somehow I had to wait even if I couldn’t possibly phantom how. The first opportunity that presented itself was my boyfriend internship in Germany. I knew I had to move, I knew I had to take action no matter what it looked like.

I didn’t speak a word of German I moved in with him for 9 months. I did cleaner job, I did tutoring jobs, I did waitress job.

Then he was offered to do a EngD in London, again I followed him, that was the action that was the closest to me being happy. I managed small jobs.

After a year I finally gave up on physio. I had in mind to start my own business.

I chose Pilates teacher and Massage therapist to start with, it went pretty well.

Until I hit the wall again, I could try as hard as I wanted to do it, to prove myself worthy, to make it happen. I couldn’t lie to myself for too long.

My body reacts very quickly, usually with eczema. I become exhausted, I become irritable and overwhelmed. I have to force myself to be that kind version of myself I know I am. I gave up. Again.

Over times I made the conscious decisions not to take that path, even though everything looked good and success was within reach. It didn’t make sense.

Not many people understood. Fortunately my friends, my family, they didn’t need to understand to support me. I pivoted. Multiple times.

I gave in to life coaching, it had been on my mind for years. I wasn’t fully qualified for it, and didn’t intend to put myself in a box again. I tried. Shyly. I tried and life kept happening. I kept showing up in some ways. I kept learning about myself. I kept accepting, handling, evolving, gracefully. I kept feeling miserable at times, but I could tell it wasn’t like before, it was less intense, it lasted less long.

Slowly I became able to tell who I was, even when emotions overwhelmed me. without realising it, life became exactly what I wanted. I have a beautiful loving family. I live somewhere I feel I belong. I feel genuinely deeply happy. I feel one. I feel like the world itself is a happy place. I feel connected to this world.

Without realising it, no trumpet, no jingle song, I joined the light. I have left the darkness behind me. There still are some shadows showing up from time to time.

But My path is so clear, the sun shines brightly above it and whispers promising secrets to my heart.

I have found my way back home, back to myself and I know that nothing can ever happen to me again now that I am united again.

Now that I am one, now that i feel whole.

During your journey, remember to stop sometimes. Let your soul catch up. And watch how far you’ve come.

Of course I am saying that!

I truly have moments in my life (entire months cough cough) when I am just binge watching feel good movies. And I don’t mean movies where the main characters overcome big struggles and difficulties.

No.

I mean feel good movies that start well, go well and end well. No huge surprise, no big plot, no actual twist. That’s Hallmark Movies for you.

As much as I know those are not actual proper movies one should watch; I am always watching them at exactly the right timing and get the perfect message I needed to hear. Every. Time.

Maybe because I have started living life with more awareness.

Maybe because those movies are much deeper than what we give them credit for,

Nevertheless behind their look, their shallowness, their silliness; they actually send a message.

Once again never judge a book from its cover.

Same goes with people. Situations. Life.

You never know.

Go with it. Go with what you value. Go with what’s important to you.

Allow Life to surprise you from time to time.

You’re dancing, from one foot to another perfectly balanced and there is no way on Earth that something could shake you up and make you fall.

You’ll just improvise another move.

You;ll just go with it and keep doing your thing. With a bit of something else.

And that’s how you build your life.

Just one step at a time.

Indulging in what makes you feel good,

Assessing, but not judging,

Enjoying.

Speak soon

Floriane x

• Don’t overthink it put yourself in the situation to do it, complain later
• Actually, complain while doing it
• Remember why it was sooo important for you to do it
• Think ‘that’s okay I’ll do it tomorrow’
• Remember all the things you’ve never done because of tomorrow
• Remember you said you wanted to shift your life slowly towards a new direction
• Remember you thought about it and decided that this promise was that one easiest thing to do to bring you there
• Still complain
• Start enjoying it
• Feel in your bones why it was so important
• Feel proud of yourself
• Look at the thing done
• Think ‘it was hard, it’s certainly not perfect but I can say I’ve shown up for myself’
• Probably start over next time

Yeah, you can tell I decided (last week) to write down one blog every Thursday. Just to get the words flowing again and to take that time for myself to reflect and share the bits and bobs I learn as a human being and now new mum.

You can be mindful all you want it won’t prevent you from boredom, tiredness and this naughty wish of cheating aka ‘not do it this ONE time’.

Well, I am pretty good at giving myself some freedom and allowing my soul and heart to skip chores and unexciting things regularly but when it comes to commitment I have made it can be a bit tough.

I have decided years ago to make promises to myself and to keep them. It was at the time a way to show myself how trust worthy I was, perfect to boost my self-esteem and self-confidence.

On a day to day basis however it ain’t so easy! I can use all the mindfulness in the world, I still get caught up in the daily little drama and holding my promises doesn’t always feel very glamourous.

Sometimes it just is this: a blog that doesn’t go anywhere but that I will keep, share and even be a little proud of because it is yet another proof that I showed up for myself. Once more.

We all know how tiny little decisions brought together make a life and a reality.

What promise to yourself are you keeping?

To anyone who is out there looking for the light out of the tunnel,

There is one, I promise you

It’s closer than you think,

Paceyourself, give it time,

I know it is not easy

But you will get through it

I have been there,

I have waited for the answer

I have felt the despair

I have asked myself why bother

I have seen everything in all shades of dark

If this is you, know this

It gets better,

The opportunity will come

The light will shine

You will feel better

• Talk to people that make you feel good
• Listen to people that make you feel inspired
• Do little things every day that make you feel alive – even if it isn’t much it matters
• You matter
• One day at a time my love,
• one day at a time

When I say that life is good I genuinely believe it

I am an optimistic because I choose to

I know how far down being pessimistic puts me

Relentlessly I choose to be happy, to be loved and to love

Every morning I choose again

The life I have

The relationship I’m in

The work I do

The friends I have

The food I eat

They are all choices I make

I choose to be alive and feel alive

I choose how life gets to feel to me and I seek those feelings

Bring that joy back. Take a step back. Make everything a choice. Raise your consciousness. Reach for the light. Make life worth living.

There always is a way to make your light shine.

HappilyMoving has been created a long time ago already. It has become what it is only recently but the values it held have not changed.

HappilyMoving stands for change, life, happiness, mindfulness and meaningfulness.

It has been a long time dream to help people follow their flow. Behind those cute words is only hidden something we all know to be true but have forgotten along the way; too busy we are running around.

Life is movement. It works and is greatly understood physically. But it also has great meaning mentally, emotionally, spiritually and socially.

Thinking out of the box – being able to perceive things differently

Bending like the willow tree so that we do not break – whatever is happening around does not have to change your inner self

Having the serenity to accept the things we cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference – Act and do not react, keep creating your life

Know thyself – the very place to start

No offense to Lao, but ‘watch’ gives a sense of control and things we must do. I would have chosen the verb ‘choose‘ for it is always your choice and there is no requirement for you to do so.

Our life is a work in progress. We are learning as we go. We have no need to do things perfectly or by the book. We are naturally drawn to feeling better and experiencing happiness. When we let it guide us we allow ourselves to feel free and step out of the small box the world has created for us to create our own.

With love,

Floriane x