I believe I already wrote about it but it still amazes me so here I come again.
I’ve had an amazing week last week when my dad came to visit. We used to be like dogs and cats and always (lovingly) arguing with each other. It got to the point where I became tired of it. I just wanted something else and nothing I could tell my dad seemed to change anything. Most probably because I kept telling him all the wrong things he was doing and how I was so unlike him.
Recently we shifted and changed that story.
I keep being annoyed at him and telling him when he’s not doing something right #virgomode but I don’t cling onto it. And it changes everything. I can laugh at my overcontrolling self. I can laugh when he is mocking me. He sees when I am right, and because a father/daugther love can’t be broken he keeps accepting my ever growing changing self and I accept that he is not indeed the perfect dad I wanted him to be and it’s perfectly fine as it is.
That being said, I managed to catch a cold when he was visiting and I did my best to take care of myself and rest to avoid being too sick so I guess I just avoided the worst.
I shared on Instagram in my stories about my love/hate relationship with sickness. I love it because it helps me ground myself , rest, and focus on what’s really important. I hate it because it doesn’t feel good at all, I have to slow down way too much and everything becomes unbearable.
Talking about mild sickness here like a cold, sore throat etc..
In those moment, I always reach a point where I get to decide whether or not my life is good.
And every time. Every single time. I always finally decide that Yes, my life is indeed very good.
It’s a shame I have to wait to be sick to feel this truth so intensively. I can feel it every other day too, but the truth of it when I am unwell is different, it makes me feel different. I just see the world with different (very tired?) eyes.
Both stories to say that indeed feeling good, being happy, having a good life is a choice we make every second.
It’s not always easy and sometimes the only thing that feels like feeling good is dwelling on things forever and that’s ok.
There will be a time when you feel like you’re ready to get over it.
The more you become aware of those sensations and feelings. The more you practice consciously choosing. The more you will be able to choose different sooner.
Choose now, or later, it’s all good.
The story is yours.